Well my heart is officially broken…and no it’s not because a cute guy didn’t text me back or I didn’t get a chance to buy one of my favorite things but over something that is truly serious.
On last night, two of my little cousins (ages 7 and 8) and I were discussing how they view the world, I was expecting light-hearted answers that reminded me of the joys of childhood, instead their answers were discerning and beyond heartbreaking. They began to tell me how they were scared of America, because this country does not like people that are their skin color. When I asked how did they know this my 7 yr old little cousin responded by saying “Because people keep getting shot.”
I swear my soul temporarily exited my body, and tears began to heavily fall down my face. I couldn’t believe the reality of what it is to be Black in America is affecting them already. However, I shouldn’t be surprised. I was only a couple of years older when I first realized being a black person in America comes with a lot of emotional trauma (when I was about 10 years old I was called a n**ger for the first time). I just can’t seem to wrap my head around the fact that almost 20 years later we are still living in a world where racial discrimination is still a huge part of our society. Or even that there are still people that openly tell Black people that racism doesn’t exist.
I continuously tell myself that one day our country will come together and have this kumbayah moment, and we’ll realize that we are all one race…the human race. I keep praying that one day this country will realize that fighting one another and hating one another won’t solve anything, but as I grow older I’m growing more doubtful of that idea. Black people are literally saying please stop killing us and people are saying “Well…” I’m not sure what it will take for this country to finally come together, or if we will come together at all.
It’s time for all Americans to look in the mirror and see our country for what it really is…fxcked up. Whether we want to face it or not our country is going through an extremely traumatic time right now, and children are seeing that. They are internalizing this country’s pain, and nothing good can come from manifested pain. We have got to come together to create a better America. A country thats’ foundation is built on love, understanding, forgiveness and not fear. If not history is just going to continue to repeat itself. Will we one day live in a world that is free of all hate? Probably not, but I’m clinging to the faith that one day we will live in a better America, and this country will truly be the land of “Life, Liberty, and the Pursuit of Happiness.”