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So it’s 1:19am on December 9th, 2014 and I just finish listening to J. Cole’s “2014 Forest Hills Drive.” I must say this album is a classic. As I listened to the album it got me thinking about my own dreams and fears too.
As you all may know I am an actress, a lifestyle blogger and soon I’ll be adding filmmaker to that list. I would be lying if I said I didn’t want to be a star, hell the perks alone make it worth it. On one hand, I’ll have a voice and be able to effectively change the world. And for me at the end of the day that’s what it’s all about. However, on the other hand my life won’t belong to me anymore.
Like most people, I often find myself wondering once I reach my dreams will I truly be happy, or is right now this very moment in life, the happiest I will ever be? According to Cole it is. In “Forest Hills” Cole basically says savor those priceless moments because the success isn’t real, it’s attainable but not real, the success is not what makes you happy. It’s the unconditional love that’s real happiness.
I do hope that when I reach my dreams I remain the same Deveney P I am right now, maybe a little more wiser but the same soulfully eccentric prototype I am right now. The thought of me changing really shakes me to the core. All in all, I hope that when I do reach my goals they’re everything I dreamed they would be and more.
In the meantime, I’m going to enjoy the hell out of my life, because I’ll never get these carefree breathless moments back again. Cole’s story telling always does this to me. His music does just what art is suppose to, provoke thought.
*This post was originally written on December 9th, 2014.